I know from all this reading you probably think I hate my fiance, but I don't. I love him very very much, whether some people believe that or not. Just this past week has been a tough one and I am sure you will see the ups and downs as I go about this blog in the future.
Okay, so, back to the title. Today sure has been one rough day, other than when it was just Noah and I playing in our living room. Right now Bryan (my future brother-in-law) and Steven (my fiance) are out getting some sort of fast food, because when I asked them numerous hours ago if they wanted me to cook something, they said "no." As I sit here, I think about what has happened between when Steven came home from work and left just now to get food...
He came home with a bag in his hands, diapers...a small package of size 4. Well, yes, we did need diapers...but I had wanted to go to Wal-mart to get them for a particular reason. Small packages are a waste of money because you always get more for what you pay with the bigger package, IGA doesn't sell that. Along with the fact that Noah is seemingly needing a size 5 diaper. With his waist the diaper is not doing its job, so we must up the size. Well, if you remember in a previous post...I stated that I tried to get him up numerous times between my getting home from school for the purpose of getting diapers, but he had neglected to get out of the bed.
Lets see...what has Steven done since we started the day this morning...
1) he continued to sleep when I asked him to get Noah when I was getting ready for school
2) a miracle happened and he stayed up with Noah from 9 AM til 12:30 PM, fed him breakfast and everything!!!!!!!
3) sleep again
4) neglected to awaken when needed to (for diapers and other errands)
5) go to work from 4 PM - 8 PM
6) come home from work just to curse, play games, and make snarky comments
7) left to go get food
Lets see...what has Christine done since we started the day this morning...
1) get up at 7 AM to take a shower
2) take care of Noah until Steven would get up
3) go to school at 9 AM
4) work on my homework until class begins
5) class from 10:15 AM - 12: 15 PM
6) meeting with professor
7) come home and play around on the computer
8) get Noah from his nap, feed Noah, play with Noah
9) feed Noah again for dinner
10) play on the computer some more.... (current moment)
Seems like the majority of what I did was productive work, rather than sleeping, but who knows maybe I am just being a brute.
Anyway, I have a very large headache right now because of the stress this is causing me at the current moment. I was supposed to go out for a friend's going away party, but chose not to due to my stress level at home. Although that seems counter-productive considering if I had gone out maybe the stress would have gone away.
Waiting for them to get home from getting food...don't worry I will not forget to tell you about the dream...just not yet!
Friday, January 15, 2010
One of My Favorites
Who knew eating was so much fun...obviously baby Noah must have! He just put his whole face into this smile!
Photo Tinks by WiddlyTinks.com
Photo Tinks by WiddlyTinks.com
Back on Schedule = Happiness
Ah, it is wonderful when the most meaningful person in the world laughs with you. Noah has been in such a great mood today. For the past week and a half he has been super off schedule and sleeping all the way through the day (as I said before about Daddy letting him sleep), but it is looking like tonight he is going to go to bed on time! I AM SO HAPPY!
Today Noah has eaten a banana (breakfast), apples and blueberries (lunch), and Turkey with veggies (dinner). Don't freak out, it was all pureed...but wait, not everyone would freak out at that. Strangely enough people start feeding their children ridiculous things at young ages. I once saw a picture of a child who was six months old, holding a french toast stick! I mean seriously, what are people thinking when they feed their children these things? Babies are special and deserve the best treatment, especially with their insides. A baby cannot digest that sort of thing, let alone chew it up when they are they young. Now yes, Noah is just over one year, so it is assumable he could eat those things, but for 98% of the time he has pureed food.
Anyway, I believe I am babbling. So, the point of this post is to tell you how amazing I felt today playing with Noah. As long as he eats three meals and takes his naps he is an extreme version of happy for a baby. Today was lovely, he watched one of his Baby Einstein DVD's with me and then he would look at me, giggle, and start to try and get away. He absolutely loves to be chased and tickled...with the exception that he does not enjoy being tickled too much. So, I would chase and tickle him and he just LAUGHED and GIGGLED and LAUGHED and GIGGLED. He looked me straight in the eye when he was laughing which just absolutely made me melt. It makes me feel so good that I can do that for someone, and not just someone, but my own child.
I always had this fear that my child would despise me and never laugh with me, but gosh I never knew I would end up with a child that loved me more than anything in the entire universe. Granted Noah is not a grown child that can tell me his true feelings, but from what he shows, he adores me just as much as I adore him. I cannot imagine loving anything as much as I love my son. He is the most precious baby boy that anyone could ever imagine or dream of having. Speaking of dreams...I will tell you of one....but wait for next time!
Today Noah has eaten a banana (breakfast), apples and blueberries (lunch), and Turkey with veggies (dinner). Don't freak out, it was all pureed...but wait, not everyone would freak out at that. Strangely enough people start feeding their children ridiculous things at young ages. I once saw a picture of a child who was six months old, holding a french toast stick! I mean seriously, what are people thinking when they feed their children these things? Babies are special and deserve the best treatment, especially with their insides. A baby cannot digest that sort of thing, let alone chew it up when they are they young. Now yes, Noah is just over one year, so it is assumable he could eat those things, but for 98% of the time he has pureed food.
Anyway, I believe I am babbling. So, the point of this post is to tell you how amazing I felt today playing with Noah. As long as he eats three meals and takes his naps he is an extreme version of happy for a baby. Today was lovely, he watched one of his Baby Einstein DVD's with me and then he would look at me, giggle, and start to try and get away. He absolutely loves to be chased and tickled...with the exception that he does not enjoy being tickled too much. So, I would chase and tickle him and he just LAUGHED and GIGGLED and LAUGHED and GIGGLED. He looked me straight in the eye when he was laughing which just absolutely made me melt. It makes me feel so good that I can do that for someone, and not just someone, but my own child.
I always had this fear that my child would despise me and never laugh with me, but gosh I never knew I would end up with a child that loved me more than anything in the entire universe. Granted Noah is not a grown child that can tell me his true feelings, but from what he shows, he adores me just as much as I adore him. I cannot imagine loving anything as much as I love my son. He is the most precious baby boy that anyone could ever imagine or dream of having. Speaking of dreams...I will tell you of one....but wait for next time!
Or not...
Okay, he might have listened earlier in the day, but now we are down to about five diapers and I would like to go to the store. Steven has to work at 5 PM and our boss (we work at Papa John's) wants him to come in earlier. Steven is a manager and I am a driver. Anyway, that is completely beside the point. When I came home my future brother-in-law (Bryan) was awake playing video games and Steven was asleep. I was notified that Noah had just gone down for a nap when I had gotten home, which is great news because that means that he is getting back on schedule. I have been home for approximately 2 hours now and Steven has been sleeping, Noah is watching cartoon Alvin and the Chipmunks adventure, and Bryan is watching with him. I am sitting here blogging to vent about the fact that we are nearly out of diapers and it is 3:15 PM...not much time to run to the store before Steven has to work.
I obviously got upset and am still upset with Steven about the fact that he still has not gotten up. I thought some sort of miracle was happening when things were going so well this morning, but now it is just back to normal. I do everything while he sleeps. Frustration is seeping into every inch of my body and I do not know how to go about changing it because you cannot change people. I asked him kindly numerous times to get up so that we could go to the store, but no (we only have one car and I do not want to leave Noah with his Uncle alone).
Wish me luck with my next attempt to wake Steven!
I obviously got upset and am still upset with Steven about the fact that he still has not gotten up. I thought some sort of miracle was happening when things were going so well this morning, but now it is just back to normal. I do everything while he sleeps. Frustration is seeping into every inch of my body and I do not know how to go about changing it because you cannot change people. I asked him kindly numerous times to get up so that we could go to the store, but no (we only have one car and I do not want to leave Noah with his Uncle alone).
Wish me luck with my next attempt to wake Steven!
My Fiance Listened
It is so dreadful when you have to wake up at 7 AM to get your homework done, when three other people in your home are sleeping. My future brother-in-law lay on the couch, snoring, with his legs kicking the TV stand as he scurries in his sleep. My future husband, with that awful sleep odor that he has, laying in our bed out cold. Lastly, my son, laying in a room that smells of urine from his fully urinated diaper, wiped out as if he had spent the day before at the beach.
Me...
Showering, doing homework, and stressing because I can't find my shoes...only to find out they were in the baby's room!
I love all of those boys, especially the littlest, but it sure does reach down into your nerves just to enought to get to you. Gratefully...Noah woke up! Yay! So, of course, I need to wake up Daddy so that I can leave for school. While Noah lays on his back banging his feet on the flat side of the crib (making so much noise) in order to get attention, Daddy, after being asked kindly to get up numerous times, is still laying in bed. I on the other hand, have to go get Noah, change his diaper and walk him in to his father so that maybe if I plop him onto Steven he will get up.
Steven (my fiance) keeps telling me that he wants to start getting up early so that he can get his day going rather than wasting it...so I am morally right to ask him to wake up when the baby gets up. On a usual basis, he would just give Noah some milk so that he would stay calmly in his crib until he fell back asleep. Luckily, I caught him in the act and told him not to make a bottle and to let Noah play because him forcing Noah to sleep until I get home from school was not acceptable.
Yay! HE LISTENED! I spent from 9:00 AM til the current moment at my college and Noah is still awake and playing. Surprisingly he hasn't even gone down for a nap. I am proud of Steven right now because he has actually done what is supposedly, "the right thing to do."
Me...
Showering, doing homework, and stressing because I can't find my shoes...only to find out they were in the baby's room!
I love all of those boys, especially the littlest, but it sure does reach down into your nerves just to enought to get to you. Gratefully...Noah woke up! Yay! So, of course, I need to wake up Daddy so that I can leave for school. While Noah lays on his back banging his feet on the flat side of the crib (making so much noise) in order to get attention, Daddy, after being asked kindly to get up numerous times, is still laying in bed. I on the other hand, have to go get Noah, change his diaper and walk him in to his father so that maybe if I plop him onto Steven he will get up.
Steven (my fiance) keeps telling me that he wants to start getting up early so that he can get his day going rather than wasting it...so I am morally right to ask him to wake up when the baby gets up. On a usual basis, he would just give Noah some milk so that he would stay calmly in his crib until he fell back asleep. Luckily, I caught him in the act and told him not to make a bottle and to let Noah play because him forcing Noah to sleep until I get home from school was not acceptable.
Yay! HE LISTENED! I spent from 9:00 AM til the current moment at my college and Noah is still awake and playing. Surprisingly he hasn't even gone down for a nap. I am proud of Steven right now because he has actually done what is supposedly, "the right thing to do."
Thursday, January 14, 2010
Frustrations with School, Baby, and Sleep
As you might have noticed already, I am a mom in college. My son, Noah, is a year and 3 weeks old. He has grown up quite quickly. I am coming to an end of my college career...at least for now. I will be graduating in the spring with my BA in English and unfortunately, not with honors. I really thought that I was going to get honors, but yesterday when I calculated my GPA I found out that I am not quite close enough to pull it off before May 16th.
Anyway, right now I am in what they call "interterm," which is a term between two terms :) other schools may call this "winter session." I am taking a philosophy course on morals and ethics, quite interesting in fact. When it comes to the reading though, that is another story! The readings are the type where you have to have your complete concentration on it and absolutely nothing else...which becomes problematic in my situation considering my son consumes my attention the majority of the time. I have to wait until the little one gets into bed to get any homework done...but here is my problem: Noah is off his schedule right now for some reason. He used to wake up every morning around eight or nine o'clock, but lately he hasn't been waking up until after I get home from class. Which sometimes is around noon and others not until two, so the problem creates him wanting to stay up later considering he slept in later. So, when I get home from school and see my lovely fiance still asleep in bed and Noah still asleep when I get home, it creates an array of frustration.
I either have to go bed when Noah goes to bed and wake up early to do my homework or I have to stay up late and still wake up early. I mean, not as early as if I had not done my homework, but I still have to drive to the school to print out my work, considering my printer's cord is no longer functioning and I do not have the time or money to fix it. So, I have been choosing both methods to get my work done based on my exhaustion, but I am starting to realize that either way creates the same amount of exhaustion.
Considering I get decent grades and I try to manage my time wisely, I feel as if I do a pretty good job...but when it comes to taking care of myself there is some sort of constraint there. I try to keep looking good, but I am a Mom and have not had any time to lose the 40 lbs I gained throughout the pregnancy. Granted that some of that weight was probably unnecessary because I ate so much with the excuse of expecting. Being tired is something that I am unsure whether I can help or not though, you tell me, is it something you can prevent?
Anyway, right now I am in what they call "interterm," which is a term between two terms :) other schools may call this "winter session." I am taking a philosophy course on morals and ethics, quite interesting in fact. When it comes to the reading though, that is another story! The readings are the type where you have to have your complete concentration on it and absolutely nothing else...which becomes problematic in my situation considering my son consumes my attention the majority of the time. I have to wait until the little one gets into bed to get any homework done...but here is my problem: Noah is off his schedule right now for some reason. He used to wake up every morning around eight or nine o'clock, but lately he hasn't been waking up until after I get home from class. Which sometimes is around noon and others not until two, so the problem creates him wanting to stay up later considering he slept in later. So, when I get home from school and see my lovely fiance still asleep in bed and Noah still asleep when I get home, it creates an array of frustration.
I either have to go bed when Noah goes to bed and wake up early to do my homework or I have to stay up late and still wake up early. I mean, not as early as if I had not done my homework, but I still have to drive to the school to print out my work, considering my printer's cord is no longer functioning and I do not have the time or money to fix it. So, I have been choosing both methods to get my work done based on my exhaustion, but I am starting to realize that either way creates the same amount of exhaustion.
Considering I get decent grades and I try to manage my time wisely, I feel as if I do a pretty good job...but when it comes to taking care of myself there is some sort of constraint there. I try to keep looking good, but I am a Mom and have not had any time to lose the 40 lbs I gained throughout the pregnancy. Granted that some of that weight was probably unnecessary because I ate so much with the excuse of expecting. Being tired is something that I am unsure whether I can help or not though, you tell me, is it something you can prevent?
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