There's a voice inside my head sayin' "you'll never make it."

Gotta keep my head held high...

I put this as my theme song because it means so much in my life.  Every day that goes by is difficult; whether you lose a job, have an unexpected pregnancy, argue with a friend or parent, whatever it may be...there is always tomorrow.

My life has become more complicated in the past week due to losing a job, but in another way it has become more flexible and relaxing.  It isn't always easy to remain on the positive side of a situation.  It is all a matter of the mind and how we choose to act.  It is ambition, personality, and poise.  Do you have it?

I know I have struggled in and out of my life, whether I am in touch with my senses or not, somehow I manage to make it back to where I need to be to keep my life in check.  I am a strong person and the people who put me down obviously do not understand what they are missing out on.  My son knew what he was missing when I wasn't home and I could tell the moment I arrived home from a hectic day at work.

I take this as a sign and a blessing.  My job is out there, I just have to search for it and grab it when it comes. I am taking life day by day, but keeping my hopes and dreams for the future.  My fiance told me last night when I was crying, "All that matters is that little boy in that room.  As long as he is happy, you should be happy.  He couldn't ask for anything more and you know that.  Just remember his smile and how happy he is. He runs around this new house like he is the happiest person on this Earth, tell me what could make him happier than to have a Mommy and Daddy that love each other?"

I love my fiance for keeping me in line at my lowest moments.  Right now, I jam to my music, listening to lyrics as if they speak specifically to me.  Now that is some life.  Live it, Love it, and Laugh while your at it!